Hillary

My Mom-Mom

2005-03-14T15:51:38Z

Well many of you know that my Mom-Mom has died....this has been one of the hardest things that I've ever had to deal with. It still hasn't totally hit me that she's gone yet, but I know it will at the funeral. I just wanted to say thanks to the people that have been there for me. Like my sister said, I've definetly realized who my true friends are. Thank you Kristin for calling me a million times a day to see if I need anything and to make sure I'm okay. And thank you for going to the funeral with me...I'm really going to need it on Wednesday. Also, thanks for coming up and studying with me and helping me write my paper which I all have to do tomorrow. Thank you Julie for calling me and IMing me, but while leaving me my space, I know that you're there and want to come over or bring me ice cream =). Thank you...Thank you Cassie for really being there and calling me lately.

And most importantly...thank you to my sister, Megan...If it wasn't for you..I don't know how I'd do it. Thank you for crying with me and letting me sleep in your bed everynight. I don't know what I'd do or where I'd be if you weren't here. Thanks for making me laugh even at the saddest times..."I see some soldiers in here, where they at, where they at?" Haha..you know what I'm talking about. Nobody could ever ask for a better sister..I love you Megan.

<3

xoxobroken @ 2004-10-29T16:04:00

2004-10-29T20:31:23Z

01. Bought everyone in the pub a drink
02. Swam with wild dolphins
03. Climbed a mountain
04. Taken a Ferrari for a test drive
05. Been inside the Great Pyramid
06. Held a tarantula
07. Taken a candlelit bath with someone X
08. Said 'I love you' and meant it (X)
09. Hugged a tree (X)
10. Done a striptease
11. Bungee jumped
12. Visited Paris (X)
13. Watched a lightning storm at sea
14. Stayed up all night long, and watch the sun rise
15. Seen the Northern Lights
16. Gone to a huge sports game X
17. Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa
18. Grown and eaten your own vegetables (X)
19. Touched an iceberg (X)
20. Slept under the stars (X)
21. Changed a baby's diaper (X)
22. Taken a trip in a hot air balloon
23. Watched a meteor shower (X)
24. Gotten drunk on champagne
25. Given more than you can afford to charity
26. Looked up at the night sky through a telescope (X)
27. Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment (X Hahah Cynthia, we are horrible!!)
28. Had a food fight (X)
29. Bet on a winning horse
30. Taken a sick day when you're not ill (X)
31. Asked out a stranger
32. Had a snowball fight (X)
33. Photocopied your bottom on the office photocopier
34. Screamed as loudly as you possibly can (X)
35. Held a lamb
36. Enacted a favorite fantasy
37. Taken a midnight skinny dip (X)
38. Taken an ice cold bath
39. Had a meaningful conversation with a beggar
40. Seen a total eclipse
41. Ridden a roller coaster (X)
42. Hit a home run
43. Fit three weeks miraculously into three days (X) (hahah, paris!)
44. Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking (X all the time)
45. Adopted an accent for an entire day
46. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors
47. Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment (X)
48. Had two hard drives for your computer
49. Visited all 50 states
50. Loved your job (X)
51. Taken care of someone who was shit-faced (X)
52. Had enough money to be truly satisfied
53. Had amazing friends (X)
54. Danced with a stranger in a foreign country X
55. Watched wild whales
56. Stolen a sign X
57. Backpacked in Europe
58. Taken a road-trip (X)
59. Gone rock climbing X
60. Lied to foreign government's official in that country to avoid notice
61. Midnight walk on the beach (X)
62. Sky diving
63. Visited Ireland
64. Been heartbroken longer then you were actually in love (X)
65. In a restaurant, sat at a stranger's table and had a meal with them
66. Visited Japan
67. Benchpressed your own weight
68. Milked a cow (X)
69. Alphabetized your records (X)
70. Pretended to be a superhero (X)
71. Sung karaoke (X)
72. Lounged around in bed all day (X)
73. Posed nude in front of strangers
74. Gone scuba diving
75. Got it on to "Let's Get It On" by Marvin Gaye
76. Kissed in the rain (X)
77. Played in the mud (X)
78. Played in the rain (X)
79. Gone to a drive-in theater
80. Done something you should regret, but don't regret it. (X)
81. Visited the Great Wall of China
82. Discovered that someone who's not supposed to have known about your blog has discovered your blog
83. Dropped Windows in favor of something better
84. Started a business
85. Fallen in love and not had your heart broken
86. Toured ancient sites (X)
87. Taken a martial arts class
88. Swordfought for the honor of a woman
89. Played a tabletop rpg/larp for more than 6 hours straight
90. Gotten married
91. Been in a movie
92. Crashed a party
93. Loved someone you shouldn't have (X)
94. Kissed someone so passionately it made them dizzy (X)
95. Gotten divorced
96. Had sex at the office
97. gone without food for 5 days
98. Made cookies from scratch (X)
99. Won first prize in a costume contest
100. Ridden a gondola in Venice
101. Gotten a tattoo X
102. Found that the texture of some materials can turn you on
103. Rafted the Snake River
104. Been on television news programs
105. Got flowers for no reason X
106. Masturbated in a public place
107. Got so drunk you don't remember anything (X)
108. Been addicted to some form of illegal drug
109. Performed on stage (X)
110. Been to Las Vegas
111. Recorded music X
112. Eaten shark
113. Had a one-night stand X
114. Gone to Thailand
115. Seen Siouxsie live
116. Bought a house
117. Been in a combat zone
118. Buried one/both of your parents
119. Shaved or waxed your pubic hair off (X)
120. Been on a cruise ship
121. Spoken more than one language fluently
122. Gotten into a fight while attempting to defend someone X
123. Bounced a check
124. Performed in Rocky Horror
125. Read - and understood - your credit report
126. Raised children
127. Recently bought and played with a favorite childhood toy
128. Followed your favorite band/singer on tour
129. Created and named your own constellation of stars
130. Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country
131. Found out something significant that your ancestors did
132. Called or written your Congress person
133. Picked up and moved to another city to just start over
134. ...more than once?
135. Walked the Golden Gate Bridge
136. Sang loud in the car; didn't stop when you knew someone was looking (X)
137. Had an abortion or your female partner did.
138. Had plastic surgery
139. Survived an accident that you shouldn't have survived
140. Written articles for a large publication
141. Lost over 100 pounds
142. Held someone while they were having a flashback
143. Piloted an airplane
144. Petted a stingray X
145. Broken someone's heart (X)
146. Helped an animal give birth
147. Had a lucid dream (X)
148. Won money on a T.V. game show
149. Broken a bone
150. Killed a human being
151. Gone on an African photo safari
152. Ridden a motorcycle X
153. Driven any land vehicle at a speed of greater than 100mph
154. Had a body part of yours below the neck pierced
155. Fired a rifle, shotgun, or pistol
156. Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild
157. Ridden a horse (X)
158. Had major surgery/corrective eye surgery
159. Had sex on a moving train
160. Had a snake as a pet
161. Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon
162. Slept through an entire flight: takeoff, flight, and landing
163. Slept for more than 30 hours over the course of 48 hours
164. Visited more foreign countries than U.S. states
165. Visited all 7 continents
166. Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days
167. Eaten kangaroo meat
168. Fallen in love at an ancient Mayan burial ground
169. Been a sperm or egg donor
170. Eaten sushi
171. Had your picture in the newspaper
172. Had 2 or more healthy romantic relationships for over a year in your lifetime
173. Changed someone's mind about something you care deeply about (X)
174. Gotten someone fired for their actions
175. Gone back to school
176. Parasailed
177. Changed your name
178. Petted a cockroach
179. Eaten fried green tomatoes
180. Read The Iliad
181. Selected one "important" author who you missed in school, and read
182. Dined in a restaurant and stolen something X
183. ...and gotten 86'ed from the restaurant because you did it so many times, they figured out it was you
184. Taught yourself an art from scratch
185. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
186. Apologized to someone years after inflicting the hurt X
187. Skipped all your school reunions
188. Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language (X)
189. Been elected to public office
190. Written your own computer language.
191. Thought to yourself that you're living your dream X
192. Had to put someone you love into hospice care
193. Built your own PC from parts
194. Sold your own artwork to someone who didn't know you
195. Had a booth at a street fair
196: Dyed your hair (X)
197: Been a DJ X
198: Found out someone was going to dump you via LiveJournal
199: Written your own role playing game
200: Been arrested

xoxobroken @ 2004-08-11T16:57:00

2004-08-11T20:58:03Z

I am so upset and disappointed..........:sigH:

xoxobroken @ 2004-08-01T11:59:00

2004-08-01T16:04:00Z

Ahhh....I haven't written in this thing in forever. (I'll try and write in it more often). This summer has gone by sooooo fast, but I CAN'T wait to move back to school on the 26th. Today, I'm going to Steve's graduation party with Dominic. That reminds me, I have to pick Dominic up at 7:45pm. I'm excited....I haven't seen Steve in forever. (Dominic, I'm excited to see you too though!)

I'm still working at camp. It's fun...but it's almost over. Than I have to find a new job. I'm not too sure if I'm going to go back to Victoria's Secret or not.

We got our schedules for college today. I got the exact schedule that I requested. I'm reall happy about that because now I don't have any classes on Fridays! Yay!! And as of now, my earliest class is 9:45AM on Tuesdays and Thursdays. And on Monday and Wednesdays, my earliest class is 11:15AM.

I'm really bored right now........I wonder what Cynthia is doing...I wish that she'd call me.

After I got home from the movies last night, Kristin came over and spent the night. We took shots with my sister and then went to sleep at 4AM. It was fun...but, I never did get my 2am phonecall from someone...Thanks....(hahah this person probably won't even read this)

Anyways, I'm going to go find something to do...

xoxo

xoxobroken @ 2003-12-21T22:20:00

2003-12-22T03:21:16Z

I haven't written a real journal entry in forever. The last one I wrote is before I went to Vermont to visit Jamie. And now Jamie moved back to DE! Anyways, I'm glad this semester is over. I could of done a lot better, next semester I will.

So, I work at Victoria's Secret in Concord Mall. I like it so far. It's been pretty busy when I've been working. I'm a sales specialist there, so basically I help people pick out bras and measure their boobs.....lol. It's not bad though.

I don't have to work tomorrow. I'm gonna go shopping a little bit. Actually, I'm not positive that I don't have to work...I'm on call from 4-close. But, everytime that I've been on call, I don't end up working. Maybe I'll go over Jamie's house if he's off tomorrow.

I'm exciting for Christmas!! I love Christmas. And since I already have all of my shopping finished, I'm really happy about that. Anyways...I'm gonna go watch tv. xoxo

xoxobroken @ 2003-12-10T21:47:00

2003-12-11T02:47:51Z

I haven't updated in forever....but I will update within the next couple days, but until then....

Cynthia you are SO sweet! You seriously made my night!! Thanks so much!!! <3 <3

xoxobroken @ 2003-10-22T13:17:00

2003-10-22T17:22:04Z

This week and last week, I've just been really busy with reading and other school work. It feels like the work never ends. I started tutoring my kid at school. Her name is Shakiera. She is so cute, and very smart. I had to pick works off of a 4th grade reading list, but she knew them all, so I went on to the 5th and 6th grade list.

We got our mid semester grades. I did all right, my lowest was 1 C+.

Donna and I are going to Vermont on Sunday. Today, I started getting really excited about it! It's gonna be so pretty up there right now! I also can't wait to see Jamie. Donna...we have to take a lot of pictures up there!

Anyways, I'm gonna go do some work.

xoxobroken @ 2003-10-16T21:18:00

2003-10-17T01:20:44Z

Donna and I are going to Vermont next weekend. Yay!! We were gonna go in November, but change of plans now. I'm excited, and I get to see Jamie again. It's gonna be so pretty up there and we'll have a lot of fun!!

This week has been really busy. I've been feeling really stressed out lately, I hate it. I've never really felt like this before. I just feel like I have SO much work and reading to get done...I feel as if it will never end.

Tomorrow's Friday, I am so glad. I still have a good amount of work to get done on Friday and Saturday though, but that's okie. At least I get a break tomorrow night and I'll go out.

Anyways, I better get back to reading for history.

xoxobroken @ 2003-10-12T15:24:00

2003-10-12T22:24:33Z

I feel so much better today.

xoxobroken @ 2003-10-11T20:13:00

2003-10-12T03:13:58Z

This feeling still hasn't gone away....

xoxobroken @ 2003-10-11T14:04:00

2003-10-11T21:06:47Z

Last night started out as a great night. But, then something happened and I was in a bad mood. I don't even know what pissed me off/upset me. And I don't know what my problem is. I just feel like crying, and that's how I felt last night.

I told myself that I would feel better in the morning. Well, I woke up this morning, and I didn't feel better. I just felt like going home, and that's exactly what I did. I probably should of stayed at school. My roommate, Meggan, is having a party at her house. But, I just don't feel like doing anything at all.....I hope this goes away.

xoxobroken @ 2003-10-08T13:07:00

2003-10-08T17:36:44Z

I've been having a really good couple of days. This past weekend, on Friday, Kristin and Amanda spent the night. While Kristin and I were on the elevator, we met this guy from the 8th floor(I'm on the 14th floor). He asked us if we wanted to go out with his friends and himself. So, we said yes. We were gonna go to this party, but then decided not to. We came back to the apartments, and just drank, but we had a lot of fun. On Saturday, Dan(the guy from the elevator) came and got Kristin and I. We went to someone's room on the 12th floor and played beer pong. That was my first time playing beer pong....and I don't drink beer, so my partner did. We all came back to my apartment and we made tacos. It ended up being a really good night also.

On Sunday, Jamie came home!! Yay! I went over there about 3pm, and I got back to school this morning. I love that boy so much, it's not even funny. We had a long conversation on Monday night, about our relationship, and just basically everything. The other day, out of no where, he was just like, "Hillary, this is the best relationship I've ever been in. I've never been this comfortable around anyone before, and I love you more than life itself." That made my day. I have a feeling I'll be with him for a while.

He took me out to the movies, we saw School of Rock. It was pretty funny, I liked it. Jamie taught me how to drive stick shift, I did really well!!

I called Cassie yesterday, to wish her a happy birthday. Her mom informed me that they send her into detox/rehab. I seriously hope she gets better. I knew she wasn't doing to well, because she told me a lot. I need to get the address from her mom and write to her.

Anyways, I gotta go do some work.

xoxobroken @ 2003-09-28T13:19:00

2003-09-28T17:19:56Z

Next weekend, Jamie is coming to visit me!!!!!!!! Yay, I can't wait!

xoxobroken @ 2003-09-16T22:53:00

2003-09-17T02:56:57Z

Aww, sometimes people can do the smallest things and it just makes your day. My friend from down the hall, made me a dog balloon animal, and then taped it on my door. It made my night.

xoxobroken @ 2003-09-05T10:00:00

2003-09-05T14:12:41Z

So I'm at college now.....I love it. I love being here. I'm so glad I get along well with my roommate also. But, she's going home this weekend, so that sucks. The first football game is this Saturday. Cynthia's gonna spend the night w/me and we're gonna go together to it. That should be fun though.

My history class is gonna be really hard, I can already tell. There are about 200 people in the class. The guy read off a paper the entire time and you couldn't really hear him!! Then today, I had the discussion for that class, and he's the one in there! But, it wasn't to bad today at all. He let us leave 20 min early again, so that's cool. I hope he does that all the time!! I have to leave in about 50 min, to go back to my other class. I'll be out by 12:05 though.

Anyways, Everyone come visit me and see my apartment!!

xoxobroken @ 2003-08-27T21:19:00

2003-08-28T04:28:53Z

Right now, I love being 18. I got back from Vermont tonight. But, Jamie and I were driving in his car today, and it was beautiful out. It was so sunny, we had the windows down, and we were listening to music. I was just so happy. I've had an amazing summer.

I graduated in June. Then I went to senior week and then Europe. I get home,and a few weeks later, Jamie moves to Vermont. Then I was able to go up to Vermont.

Today, Jamie took me to the train station. As we were driving, he was just, "Hillary, what's wrong?" Well, I just started crying. So, I didn't cry long, only a few minutes. I thought my crying was all finished. After I get on the train, I sit down, and the train leaves. All of a sudden, I just started crying. I love that boy so much.

I love falling asleep with someone you love, and then waking up next to them, and they have their arms wrapped around you. It's the best feeling in the world.

Vermont was really nice, but I don't think it's a place I'd ever be able to live in. The weather was beautiful! We had so much fun even though we didn't really do much. For example, there isn't a kitchen table in their apartment. I made dinner for Jamie and I. We sat on the kitchen floor and ate. I dunno, it just made me really happy.

We went to the movies and saw Freddy v. Jason. Jamie and I liked it. On the way home, we were listening to Brand New. I was just looking up at the stars and I still can hear the lyrics, "We're 18 and we're young and in love...." It just made me smile so much.

Jamie's roommate, Rick, is really nice too. Jamie said that Rick and him already started talking about when they're coming to visit Delaware. I can't wait.

I'm gonna go to bed though. I have a lot of stuff to do tomorrow.

xoxobroken @ 2003-08-20T04:17:00

2003-08-20T11:19:04Z

I gotta go get ready to go to work, but this week, I just haven't been in the best of moods. I have no reason for that either....nothing bad has been happening at all. It's just the mood inside of me....it's not happy and stuff. Maybe you don't know what I'm talking about, but oh well! Jamie keeps telling me I should be happy because I leave for Vermont on Sunday. On Saturday, I'll be really excited and happy, just not the rest of the week. I need some cheering up....

xoxobroken @ 2003-08-16T21:29:00

2003-08-17T04:39:58Z

Tonight I went to the movies with Cassie and Steve. We saw Freaky Friday, it was really cute! I haven't hung out w/Steve in forever, I love that kid!

Today, Julie and I went to the beach for the day....the weather was HORRIBLE! It started raining and everything. So that sucks, but we got to shop, and it still was fun. Then we met up with some of the other people that work at the camp. It was weird though because I'm not really friends with them at all. Damn, Julie leaves for school on Wednesday...that sucks.

I'm going out with my roommate, Meggan, tomorrow! yay!! I'm so excited! But, I'm also a little nervous, but I know everything will turn out great! We're going out at 1pm.

Next weekend, I go to Vermont. That rocks....I'm extremely happy about going up there. I've never been to Vermont either, so very exciting.

I haven't hung out with Cynthia, in seriously....forever. I wonder if she'd want to hang out with me before school starts?!

xoxobroken @ 2003-08-14T14:17:00

2003-08-14T21:21:47Z

I haven't written in here for a while. Not much as been happening though. I've been working at the YMCA camp everyday, and that pretty much tires me out. This week has gone by pretty fast for me actually. Tomorrow, is Julie's last day at camp. That sucks, but oh well.....

I can't wait until August 24th, when I go up to Vermont to see Jamie. I'm really excited, and I just got my train tickets in the mail yesterday!!

I also need to call my roommate, Meggan, to see when she wants to go out to lunch or whatever. I think on Saturday, I'm going to the beach with Julie.

Wow.....Thomas called me this past weekend, I was suprised. Then yesterday, I was driving in my car w/my sister and we saw him outside of his work. He also saw me, so he called my cell, and then we went to visit him.

Two nights ago, Jeffrey took me out to dinner. It was fun! We went to Chili's, and I've never been to Chili's before either. After dinner, we went back to his house, sat on the deck, and just talked for an hour or two. It was really fun though, it sucks that Jeffrey is moving to South Carolina the first week of September.

Well, I'm gonna go to Target because I'm bored.

xoxobroken @ 2003-08-08T04:21:00

2003-08-08T11:21:35Z

I talked to my roommate last night! I love her!!! We talked for about 2 hours like we've been best friends forever.

xoxobroken @ 2003-07-26T10:10:00

2003-07-26T14:14:17Z

Today is Jamie and I's one year anniversary! Yay! So, it should be a nice day. He was suppose to leave for Vermont today, but instead he decided to leave tomorrow morning so he could be with me all day! I think I might be spending the night at his house tonight.

Last night, Jamie and I went swimming in his pool, then layed on his deck and looked at the stars. It made me so happy.

I'm gonna go get a shower though. xoxo

xoxobroken @ 2003-07-21T00:46:00

2003-07-21T04:47:26Z

:sigh: Jamie is moving away to Vermont because of his drug problems, and he leaves on Saturday or Sunday.......I'm really upset, but there's not much I can do. I mean, I want him to get help, but I'm not into the whole long distance relationship. He told me if I loved him that I'd just TRY the long distance relationship. So, we'll see what happens, even though I really don't think that I'm the type of person that will be to pull a long distance relationship off. Well, life goes on.....

xoxobroken @ 2003-07-17T01:21:00

2003-07-17T05:21:56Z

I haven't updated since I've been back from Europe. I promise I'll update soon though, but for now, here's some pictures from Europe.

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xoxobroken @ 2003-07-03T14:08:00

2003-07-03T12:11:02Z

I am in Europe now, Belgium to be exact....I will be home on Sunday...everyone call me then!!!

xoxobroken @ 2003-05-31T14:36:00

2003-06-01T18:40:57Z

So tonight is graduation. Ahhhh, I hope I don't cry, but, I'm sure I will.

Yesterday, we went down to the beach to check in to our house. They made the upstairs room a lot smaller then it was before!! Jamie and I were the only ones that spent the night. It was so nice though. We unpacked our clothes, which I wasn't going to do, I was going to just leave them in my bag. But, Jamie made a big deal about how my clothes are going to be wrinkly. So, he helped me unpack all my stuff, and put it away. I can't wait to go back down to the beach tonight after graduation.

Julie's graduating now. (Actually, she's probably almost finished!)

So, I went to that prom on Friday night. The boy I went with, I didn't know at all. He also woudln't dance AT ALL. This kid wouldn't even try to dance! I was kind of mad about that, because I really felt like dancing. The limo we had, was HUGE, for just us 2. I mean, this limo, was the size of the limo I went in for my prom, with 10 people in it. We were all standing out of the sun roof, that was fun though.

Then after prom, it was JUST dancing. Since my date doesn't like to dance, we sat there the wholeeeee night. After prom was until 4:30AM, and you HAD to stay there until that time.

I'm gonna go bug my mom, because I'm bored. I'll be back in a week.